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wow its been long over a year. i guess i have been so much more busy than i thought. Danny is 3 now, Addison can almost talk and i have a neice! jay and sandy finally had a baby! Katelyn...i love her so much she is adorable! i also have found the love of my life! chris means the world to me. we have been oing out for over a year now and ive never loved anyone so much. i work with coley at a sub shop and its a love hate relationship...not me and coley....me and my job. i love my job....but hate some of the people i work with. but thats a story for another day. hmmm what else should i catch u up on? i think ive said almost everything. amanda moved to florida. Dani is coming to see me for her birthday!! i cant wait to see her i miss her so much!! :) oh and to fix a few things from my last entry.... i never went back to blockbster, never went out with richard or gity and that chapter in my life is done. lol ive grown up alot recently..mostly cuz of chris...he really helped me. ive never been so happy with life and friends and such. im more responsable and smarter. but i digress. im gonna go for now. i hope to be able to get back soon. love ya lots <3
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[07 Aug 2007|11:43am] |
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Heyyyz! well im working and bored again. lol ive once again been sitting here all morning with not much of anything to do. i went home sick yesterday.  i feel weird today. like sick but not sick...mostly just in a bunch of pain for like no reason...i think it might be the way i slept last night. Ive been thinking about Leyton all day too. mostly cuz i saw him the other night. he came over Ashers moms house with Steven Paul and Adam. but last night he sent me a myspace messege...saying he had to ask me somthing but wasnt sure if he should or how to say it. im kinda stressing about it bcuz idk what it is. i have no idea at all what it could be. It could be good ....it could be bad...it could have absolutely nothing to do with "us" or it could have everything to do with us. I HAVE NO IDEA! i cant hold it in anymore im worried actually about what hes gonna say. Anyways...im not really working at blockbuster anymore...for now. im going back there when im done here at ON. Not a bad deal. i finished reading OOTP. Im now reading half blood prince. although ppl dont know how to keep quiet so i know much more about book 7 then i should. i also know that there is going to be an 8th book!!!! yayness! lol im excited. IM sO BoReD! AHH i dont even know what to do with myself. so before i start rambling on...im gonna go. k? ttus BuH ByEs *Stephi
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[23 Jul 2007|11:15am] |
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ok lots to correct...no JB didnt take me to prom...i went with Ashers and danced with All my friends to Techno music. Me and Gity are barely friends anymore because i asked out Richard who told Gity who got mad and now Gity is mad because i like someone else...but ill get into that in a few. I just got back from NH yesterday, Ashers came with. it was fun even tho it rained a bit. we didnt fight at all which was cool . we saw a moose which made me happy. lol (by the way im at work right now) I work at ON Semi Conductor for the summer. its really quiet and as u can tell ...quite boring most of the time. i have nothing to do right now. im waiting for my supervisor to get here and give me soemthing to do. ive been here since 830 and its now 11:19. im here till 5. boy o boy. lol ive been reading Harry Potter all day cuz i just got the 7th book and have to finish the 5th first. i already saw the movie but i have all the books now so im all set. anyways...7-7-7 was a good day...who am i kidding??? it was an AWESOME day! i went to a party at Steven Grants house and i have a bit of a crush on his friend Leyton. well i ended up sleeping over that night along with Ashers...we slept in the living room with Ryan, Paul, Leyton and Eric. I slept Next to Leyton <3. we cuddled.. i like to cuddle lol it was so much fun. Leyton fell asleep around 2 am i guess. i never slept until about 5 after leyton woke up and we were talking for a bit then he helped me fall asleep by holding me allnight...i should really say morning. lol well anyways im gonna get back to doing nothing...AKA work. lol bbl i hope to write back soon...but hey promises promises right? c u sooon.. <3 ya
<3 Stephi
I <3 Leyton :)
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[06 Apr 2007|10:37am] |
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Sorry peeps ive been busy. well to catch up...im Still in love with Kyle...me and Cody never got back together and barely talk anymore. and i went out with Alex from 7/6/06-01/02/07 and now hes an ass. but anyway...now im talking to Jon and thats cool. hes taking me to prom. so thats cool. right now its good friday and so im home from school but have to go to work in a few hours. fun fun. not really i HATE the filibuster. so much! i cant wait to quit there omgosh u dont even kno. anywayz Gity has beeen getting on my nerves lately. i cant stand him right now. he blames all his problems on me and then complains to his friends afterwords who tell him that if he doesnt stop being my friend their gonna stop being his. w/e i dc anymore. well i cant talk for long cuz my brreakfast (that im not supposed to be eating cuz its meat) is getting cold. so ill update soo i promise. <3 ya
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Heyy ....whats up yea another long time...well to catch up..me and cody started hangign out and then began dating. 4*24*06 - 5*4*06...not long but omg it was the best relationship ive ever been in. idk what happened...he said hes just stressed and that he doesnt have time or money to spend with me....but i dont care about the money or seeing him all the time....i like him for him and not all his cool stuff. Ive liked Cody for about 3 years..b4 i went out with Dana and ive alwayz wanted to go out with him and everyone knew he liked me too...and when we started going out he said i wouldnt settle for someone i have to go out with someone i really like. so idk everyone thinks we'll get back together cuz even he said it at first...so idk. i hope we go back out...he was the best thing that ever happened to me..it was only 1 week and a half but we spent alot of time together and he was just so sweet....hes awsome! idk well onto other news...
Amanda M. and I are no longer friends...dont wanna get too much into that issue.
Oh and my best friend Sarah seems to be happy that me and Cody broke up...even tho, ya kno, me and cody have both liked eachother for like 3 years and he almost asked me out twice b4 and i was extremely happy with him. shes glad we broke up....okie dokie then...idk how to get out my anger on this cuz being the good friend that i am i dont wanna hurt her feelings.heh. yea anywayz....
So Cody is still taking me to prom this week. This friday!!! woot woot!! i cant wait im so excited...he paid for it ...i kinda felt bad...but he wanted to. i told him we couldnt go cuz i couldnt afford it and he asked what it was that i couldnt afford and i said i cant buy my ticket. so he asked if i wanted him to pay for it for me and i said no...and later that night he said do u wanna go to prom...and i stalled for a minute but i said yes...and he said then ur going to prom. omg hes so sweet! i hope we get back together. well anywayz i g2g...luv ya
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[23 Mar 2006|09:04pm] |
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Heylo ppls whats up?? n2m here. im bored and i noticed i havent updated in forever. so here i am. Me and Richard are no longer but my dear sweet friend Samantha has stolen him from me. thats not right at all! i mean come on! u dont do that to someone especially if ur claiming to be there best friend and everything...i would NEVER do that to any of my friends...and the worst part is that she lied to me. that just killed the whole thing...i mean i suspected from the beginning no doubt but it still hurt. ALOT! i do some bad and even mean things....but i would never steal someones love away from them...so u kno what....they can both BITE ME! im done and i dont need back stabing friends like that. besides...i like someone else anyway. and he likes me...kinda...he told my friend he did and then told me he didnt but he acts like he does. so idk but i really really really really wanna go to the prom with Kyle..but he cant go cuz he has to work :( but i just might not go to prom cuz i dont wanna go with anyone else and dont wanna go alone either. idk well anywayz im gonna go for now...just wanted to update a lil...luv yaz
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Heylo ppls... cant talk for long cuz its 10:30 and im finishing my Shop homework and now that i noticed the time im geting tired...lol ever happen to u? lol anywayz today Richard came over. lol it was fun we just sat around tickeling eachother for 3 hours lol. and cuddleing...i like to cuddle with him! lol yea im going over his house next time cuz cassie was so annoying to us today! so i hope to go to his house sometime this weekend. hmmm idk what to say lol i neeeeeeeeeeeed to finish my hw and go to bed so im gona go kk? luv ya
*Spider Goddess*
*I*Love*Richard*
*1*12*06*
*Alwayz*And*Forever*
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Heylo ppls...omg so much going on...ok so me and Richard are going out now as of *1*12*06* and im so happy with him. i hope this one lasts...idont wanna jinx it tho so ill shut up about that part. we went on a date b4 we actually started going out. and hes liked me for a while so i have a good feeling. anywayz lol i dont wanna talk much about it cuz like i said i dont wanna jinx it. umm about that whole manda situation....i feel bad about what i said b4 and im srry for it...we're trying to work things out and be friends again and i rele want that. but right now im extremly tired cuz i just got home from work so im going to bed...ill write soon i hope...i luv ya
*Spider Goddess*
*I*Love*Richard*
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*I*Wanna*B*With*U*Alwayz*
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[13 Dec 2005|07:51pm] |
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heylo pplz....the title..."long time no talk" is for many reasons on this day that i write to u lol anytwayz the first reson is that i havent written to u in so long my adoring fans! lol j/k and uve missed out on so much!! well to some up shortly....nov 19 2005...stephi goes out with cole...same night..stephi and cole's first kiss/date....nov 29 2005.... stephi turns 18....dec..4...2005..stephiz bday party with all friends...same night ...stephi and cole break up...stephi is highly upset. ok so then on the tuesday after james asked me out i say yea break up the next day and back to crying over cole...im ok now better than i was..me and amanda arent friends anymore cuz shes a 2 faced slutty fatass whore and i cant stand her in the least anymore....u want me to talk shit manda i can talk shit..this is a 2 way street...anywayz so yea another reason for this name is cuz i just got in touch with a long long lost best friend of mine...Dani....she called me completely out of nowhere tonight! i was surprised and happy about this! lol ive missed her despite the fights and crap cuz she was alwayz my best friend forever no matter what. yay! happy...so anywayz i dont know what else to say so ill bbl OH! and i spent the entire day in the ER today but thats another story..g2g for now! lol bye byezz
*Spider Goddess*
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[08 Oct 2005|09:15pm] |
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Heylo pplz....im just updating cuz im bored...i probly wont write much. my day is horrible...captain asshole is living up to his name. omg i cant stand him. today i just wanted to leave btu i felt bad for my mom cuz when my brother was like 14 he left cuz my dad was an asshole and she doesnt wanna lose me the same way. but i cant take his shit anymore im done....i locked myself in my room today and didnt come out all night till now. well im not rele sure what else to write tomarrow night im goin to factory of terror with my cousins and the 23 im going to salem with my other cousin and the 29 im haveing a halloween sleep over with a bunch of friends. so that shoudl make me feel better. lol well i g2g for now. ill ttul.
*Spider Goddess*
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lol heylo pplz..whats up? not to much with me. well to update...me and matt broke up.. yea its ok i guess but now hes avoiding me completely. so idk. but i did meet someone on saterday at shea high school. its one of kevins friends. hes rele cool we are into a lot of the same stuff including Good Charlotte and Green Day. we're just friends (of course lol cuz we just met) but he is rele cute. (he doesnt think he is) but anywayz today i went to amandas house. we watched the ring 2. but anywayz i dont have much to say and im tired so im gonna go...ill write soon...ok bye byezz
*Spider Goddess*
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heylo pplz...whats up? nothing here...im just getting ready to got ot my sister skating party ofr her school to raise money for the Katrina Fund. Im so happy tho i got my spiderman watch in the mail today...for those who dont kno about my old one...my cousin dropped in the ocean and its gone. but anywayz i got the same exact one off ebay. i also got mad today cuz everyone is spreading rumors about matt and telling me stuff like hes cheating on me..i kno its not true tho and i told matt. but anywayz i dont have anything else to say right now so im gonna go...luv yaz!!
*Spider Goddess*
I <3 Matt
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[19 Sep 2005|09:38pm] |
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heylo pplz...whats up? i just got home. i went out with matt tonight. first we went to the emerald square mal land then we went to the patriot and saw Batman Begins. ive seen it already but i loved that movie so i wanted to see it again.lol its an awsome movie. i was just thinking....i havent been as happy as i am with matt in a long time. i think its czu we are trying to work things out and it is working so far. and im so happy with him. i rele hope he feels the same about me that i feel for him and i rele hope this lasts long bcuz i rele wanna be with him so bad. i have a feeling tho that this time its gonna work out....and i hope im right. well anywayz i have stuff to do b4 going to school in the morning so im gonna go do stuff now....luv yaz
*Spider Goddess*
I <3 Matt
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[18 Sep 2005|09:50pm] |
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heylo ppls...yea srry its been so long lol. well to catch up a little ....im going back out with matt. its been a week and 4 days. we went to the movies on friday night with laura, dave, jason, and courtney. it was fun. we saw "just like Heaven" . it was a good movie. lol so anywayz today i sat home and listened to everyone fighting and watched Phantom of the Opera with Cassie. it was a rele good movie im actually surprised that cassie liked it. it doesnt seem like something kids would like. so anywayz tomarrow im hanging out with matt. i cant wait i missed him today. we were gonna hang out today but he went to a family party. so yea i sat home and listened to hell. doesnt that sound fun?? lol well anyways i dont have much more to say so im gonna go for now. luv yaz
*Spider Goddess*
I <3 Matt
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[30 Aug 2005|12:16pm] |
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heylo pplz..whats up? yesterday i went to canobie lake with the family and chris came too..it was so much fun..mostly cuz i was with chris lol. i went on the corkscrew for the first time! it was awsome except it beats the hell outta u! lol i had such a headache when i got off the ride. the most fun was the ride home lol. it confused me tho i have no idea what was going on. it was like me and him were going out but he doesnt wanna go out right now....i think he wants to go out with someone else. but idk...well newayz we go back to school on thursday...2 more dayz!i actually cant wait. i just have to finish...start my summer work. lol i hope i can do it...i think i can lol....i also found something out from nicole that i liked but i cant say..i love teasing my readers lol. but anywayz i g2g for now... luv ya
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heylo pplz....whats up? not too much here..its been a while. lol i came back from new hamshire last week and it was ok. i took a train to the top of Mt Washington and there was a guy on the train and he looked exactly like one of my friends he was so cute. lol anywayz i miss josh!!! so much! i barely talk to him anymore and i never see him. i kno what ur thinking..i should call him but i dont kno what i would say...i mean i love him and i told him that and he told me that he loved me too....so whats the problem? if he loves me like he says then y cant we be together and y am i the only one that feels this way? guys confuse me. newayz i have to babysit tonight. oh and i got my driveres license on tuesday..im so happy it was easy i got a 86 on the test...and i had a job interveiw with stop and shop yesterday..im rele growing up...its kinda scary...idk im like that im afraid to grow up and ill admit it and i dont care what anyone thinks about it.. im afraid to grow up and be alone and just everytthing about the future scares me....it scares me to stay backa nd repeat the 11th grade cuz it feels like ....idk like im being forgotton or something...idk well anywayz i have some stuff to do so i g2g..ill bb soon...luv ya
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heylo pplz...i was just wondering y it is that im alwayz the friend and never the girl..i mean everyone wants to be my friend and im never the girl to anyone..am i not good enough? even some of the guys that like me dont wanna be with me as more than a friend cuz they dont wanna ruin the friendship or something. i mean like its alwayz something like..."we're better off as just friends" "I like u better ass a friend" ""I love u as a friend but im not sure i like u in that way" "I dont wanna ruin our friendship, your a great friend" key words there...GREAT FRIEND....u kno if some of these guys that say this thought about it..if im a good friend doesnt that give me potential to be a good girlfriend too? idk im just so sick of alwayz being the friend and never the girl..its so tireing....i g2g luv yaz...bye byez
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heylo ppls...well its been a really long time since i updated but now i need to talk....basically vent to anyone who wants to read this. but anywayz i just have so much stuff going on right now. first of all its about my dog....actually captains dog...she has a brain tumor and is probably going to be put to sleep and i feel horrible cuz i love her and allen has had her for 7 years and that about how long him and mom have been togerther so ive known her her entire life. i dont wanna let her go at all. shes been reminding me of my nana and last night i was crying to my mom about how she remeinded me of my nana. idk what to do we could do something to help but she still might not make it. well newayz on to another subject which i wish i could say was happier but actually is as depressing only in a differennt way. this one is about josh. i think that i love him more than anything and i kno ive said this stuff multiple times but the truth is ive only been in love once b4 and i thought that that person was my one and only and the center of my world.....and ive thought that up untill recently when i realized just how much josh rele means to me. the other night i was watchin my favorite show "dawsons Creek" and ive seen this episode so many times and i NEVER cry when i watch dawsons creek....but i cried at the rele romantic part and the first person that came to mind was josh. and it scared me cuz i never would have thought that i liked him that much. but the truth is that i really do. i dont wanna lose him either cuz even if we cant be together as boyfriend and girlfriend i still wanna be his friend. idk well anywayz i g2g for now....ttul luv yaz!
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